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When my son Lydell was very young, he hated brushing his teeth.  He would cry, act like he was gagging, try to get off the counter.  So I started to play a game with him.  I’d say, in my little mommy singsongy voice:  “What do I see in there????  I see a little alligator!  Let’s get him!!!”  His eyes would get big and then he would open his mouth and let me get that little critter out of there, while he would laugh and laugh.  And every night, I’d think of another little beast that appeared in his mouth.  I don’t think he ever had any cavities because he was so careful to get rid of all the monsters lurking in his little mouth.  (Moms are so sneaky, aren’t they?)  I guess I didn’t know that I was only following the Laws of Dual Thought and Substitution.  You cannot think of two things at the same time.  You also can’t be angry and happy at the same time.  

As I wrote in last week’s blog, we are renovating our house.  I’ve heard it said that one of the biggest causes of divorce is home renovations, and now I know why!  This is actually the second home renovation we are going through, but it’s been extremely long and stressful.  Though I would never divorce my husband, today was one of those days where I would have been happy to take a vacation without him!  But as I was driving, and found myself feeling angry, I decided to search for that happy memory that would make me smile and replace that angry feeling I was having.  I searched deep, and remembered our first date.  He was so handsome, all dressed up, even though we weren’t going out anywhere.  And then he sat down and played a song from Phantom of the Opera on the piano for me.  Oh my!  I love musicals and I particularly love that song.  In an INSTANT, my heart melted, and I felt myself remembering how much I loved listening to him play, and how gifted he was.  It was like magic!

I can feel my old blueprint fading away week by week.  I think maybe this will be the week that I can go for more than a day on the Mental Diet without starting over every hour!   I know the trick now!